~Blu-hoDo is sleeping over at my place tomorrow...then next day we will visit ~supervillain-wang and I sleep over at "Devblu-hodo:'s place. LOL yay!! X3 2 days of manga work!!!
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So due to some complications....my friend was unable to get out Otakon hotel for free...so now i have to pay...57 bucks cuz ~Blu-hoDo can't come cuz of the hotel paying...and you know what... My friend decided to ask me if i was mad at him about havign to spring the hotel paying....i just smiled and said "naww...i'm not mad at you...i just wanan murder you~" and now it's even more of an intent cuz now ~Blu-hoDo can't come cuz of his imcompetence...well i guess u cant blame him if the agency won't give him the free hotel this time....but yeah i'm mad cuz i won't have my best friend with me... ahhh I'll look foward to see ~Bzak,~iMoloko, & *Inari-no-Kitsune...i think they all said they are coming...and i hope to have more friend surprises... but nothing can fill the void of not having my best friend with me...and well just for my friend..i will have OVER 9000 times more fun for her...

ahh i wanna get something for:
:iconsupervillian-wang: and carmen, and sunna
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I probably cant get fancy stuff...probably end up gettign something for them all at the artist alley...Cuz i'm like No-Good tsuna...

Also get Choi a bday gift over there...

I hope to find Katekyo HITMAN Reborn, AP Hetalia, Fullmetal Alchemist things....maybe 07-Ghost...but i really doubt that one LOL!!! (This is stuff for myself)

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Okay...yeah...I dun think I am really the Insane-obsessed FMA fangirl as i was silently titled back in High school... I think i Am an Offical Insane-obsessed KHR fangirl....(anime wise atm...manga i will read on my free time...I don't really liek the art in the manga...i'm in love with the anime art...which is why i'm like all concentrated on the anime...)

I know the KHR anime lacks things from the manga which is why i shall read it....on my own slow lagging pace... I have like 4 volumes of it...NOT in order LOL

I think i slowly fade out of FMA...cuz it's a bitter sweet action series...but the seires makes me too depressed...heck at the end of the anime...i was depressed for a whole half a year...I am very..."sai-sum" (thats how i would write it out for the chinese term) Its more toward getting scared...paranoid-ish easliy...But i feel it kinda means (not sure if it really does in chinese) sensitive heart too... I get very emotional and sensitve easliy...i can cry very easliy now that i accepted it as of last year around january-march... Now i cry so easily for films...adn everything...basically FMA's sad/depressign topics are wayy too much for my own heart to handle... so thats probably why i'm drifting from it...NOT that it sucks..i think it's one of the greatest series...but it's too sad and bitter for myself to handle... yesh...Imma wimp like Tsuna... i dont care anymore...

Anyways...I got really attached to KHR...just cuz it really does have a nice storyline to me...AND it shows and seems some what like the motif of the seires....or they just emphasize it alot... "loyalty,trust,& belief in one's own family,& friends" that bonds and faith in one another gets you through all. I really solely treasure this kind of things so much... I have alot of betrayls and deception...so it really is one of the things i vaule the most and would wanna protect.
I wish to be coldhearted a lot since yeah..i get hurt alot...but I'm too trusting and naviee' and i guess stupid...well my true friends and family think that...when i kept some ppl that i felt betrayed by...it's cuz I really can't forget the times we spend to built the bonds we had...and i am willing to trust my own intuition to try to amend the friendships...and to be honest...even though some of my cloests calls me stupid...i really don't believe i am... i think my faith in the once broken bonds was one of the smartests and greatest things that happened in my life...I always wanted justice for my self when ever i get betrayed...and i think the mending of broken bonds was the justice in my own way/view point.

i was still in doubt of my bonds with some people...but... really my doubt in friendship brings me fear...which is the same for most ppl. i know. But now i just wanna me a so call "stupid and naivee" person that will just have infalliable faith in the peopel i care about...and if it all goes wrong..fine i'll get back up and move on that crazy path called life. I now know being cold hearted inst really showign my strenth or protection...I may be or sound liek a wuss...but i think it's my own stength too. XDD

wow...I think ~Blu-hoDo is right...what she told me the other day... She said she was reading KHR, and noticed alot of the KHR charaters ressemble our friends alot...she was saying mukuro reminds her of *incessantme (whihc is true)...Yamamoto loosk reminds her of her brother...but the personality of one of our friends...i think Yamamoto's personality reminds me of ~acidicness...i forgot if we said anything else...OH i said Lambo is like my brotehr, Mike LOL!!! Anyways what i wanted to say was i think She is right on me=Tsuna...She said the more she looked at Tsuna...he looks kinda like me (LOL my male anime conuterpart)...& that I worry alot like him....i think when i self evaulate my self truthfully...i really am no different from tsuna...maybe just a little more hotheaded and stubborn on certain thing...but the friends, family, protecting close ppl. concern for everyone even if they don't like you...being pretty wimpy and useless...and low self confidence...YEAH...i can see why i relate and adore tsuna soo much... I do admire him a lot too... probably because of the things i can relate to him...

wow shoot i sproted deep stuff on you all...i should really shove this in a blog...i shoudl make one..so you all don't have to read my stupid rants...i really do talk too much..i'm sorry pplz...TT^TT

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So...first 2 Gaia Commissions were a success. ^u^ now on the 3rd one and it's in the sketchign process....and i still have to refined Tomomo-chan's art request too D:
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I found out BECCA who sang Kuroshitsuji's endign song is havign a concert on Sunday of Otakon. i can't wait!!! she's amazing. she kinda looks like a punked version of Demi Lovato. I love Demi she's adorable and nice.

Oh..i am gonan be Italy for i think 2 days (fri. and Sat. most likely) and one day as Lenalee (Sun. probably)


well if you wanna see the Gaia commissions i did. Look me up on [link]. My username on Gaia is the same as my dA username~
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[link]

So I made a new Gaia friend. Yesh I am on Gaia...cuz its a good place to ask how's going as what for a con.... responses are faster there... anyways She's going as America and happens to live int he same city as me isn't that the coolest thing ever?!?! anyways well my avatar is a guy so i had to give her the head sup that I'm a girl physically a girl.. and she was cool on it. She soo uber sweet,nice, and cool~ i can't wait to meet her at the Hetalia meets~

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SO commissions, and Fenestra manga...and find a way to make prints for possiable artist table at NYAF?? i dunno as of now...a friend of mines invited me to be with her...i dunno i really dun... LOL!!!! a busy summer this year indeed.

OH i'm going to DISNEY WORLD aprks and resort again this summer~ last 10.21-09.04 i think~ WOOT~! I LOVE DISNEY!!!!

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offically now...I am gonna do a collab manga with
gonna post the pages here:
[link]

the title is: Fenestra

we're still in the story plot making but that's almost done and a few this and that and we'll start on the pages asap~

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Commissions?:

[link]

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CLUBS i am in: